Friday, 31 December 2010

3d – Critical questions and issues that emerge

The specific ideas that emerge about my networking and how I source information were firstly that I network with people I trust.  I am more cooperative than I give myself credit for but I really need to think about being even more competitive.  Having read the theory I will now stop beating myself up about not networking because I do a lot of it already. I could however broaden my sources and diversify more.
 I feel my engagement in networking is quite unplanned.  I need to be more proactive, maintain contact with past associates and make more effort.  One thing I could start on straight away is using more of the functions of the existing technology available.
I tend to associate with people of the same mind, common interest.  They are in my network because of the way we feel so we share ideas & concerns.
I like to share my ideas and I like to listen to others and I have on occasions changed my mind or grown another interest but the argument has to be sound.  I am not a sheep and just follow the latest trend.  I know what I like but I think if I am feeling lost or confused I need to step back and think if I am doing something because I want to or because I don’t know what else to do.
I think critical reflection does help me decide what really matters and what actions to take but I realise now I am very undisciplined when it come to critical reflection.  I do think a lot but don’t always put it into actions.  I know I can be a lot better at networking if I make the investment in time and actions.
Many of the concepts and theories made a lot of sense to me; however reading did not come easy especially the Social Constructism. I struggled to find relevant practical examples. I am a tactile learner not a theoretical reader.
This module has definitely had an impact.  I am much more aware of what I do and why I do it. I am very conscious that I need to be more disciplined, proactive and more competitive.  I have really enjoyed reading other blogs and appreciate how we all do things differently.  I now need to make more of a habit of writing my reflection about the blogs rather than just thinking about it and I hope this will all contribute to my confidence.

Task 3c Sources of Information

My top 5 sources of information:
·         Internet:
Many people have said that this was the first and most obvious.  I use it so often and already take it for granted.  Everyone I communicate with uses the internet, even my Nan, who is 85 has an email account.  With regards to networking, I find most of my casting information on the web.  I generally talk to me agent via email rather that in person.  It is a quick delivery vehicle for information but it does need human interaction to read it.
I think it does have some disadvantages though.  You don’t get a personal touch, it is purely factual and often things can be misinterpreted.  I do not have a back up when the web is not available and I feel lost and totally out of touch.  The other disadvantage is there is a lot of information available and it can take time to filter it.
·         People:
People are definitely a major source of my information.  I have said before I like to talk and so do my friends.  It is also good to put a face to name if you have only been communicating on the internet.  Face to face discussions are interactive and topics can be expanded instantly.  It is also good to get someone’s personal views on things which are so much easier face to face. 
Disadvantages are it is more time consuming, can be expensive if you have to travel to meet up with people and I am finding getting people’s diaries to match can be a challenge.
·         TV & Radio
I drive a lot so I always have the radio on and I find a lot of information about when shows are on or coming to an end or even a cast change.  With TV it allows me to see stuff I couldn’t do personally e.g. shows, biographies, interviews & facts.  It is also easy and comfortable to watch or listen and most of the time it can be recorded for later.
Disadvantages are communications are one way communication and structured so there is no deviation.  Some things can also be addictive and a waste of time
·         Literature
I like to read.  I read on line and hard copy and there is a huge amount of resources available.  It is portable, easily available on loan or purchase even when the internet is down.
Some of the disadvantages are it could be out of date (half life!!), it can be bulky to transport, can get easily damaged and can be editorially bias.
·         Performances
I think watching performances is a good source of information.  It is today’s news.  I love seeing a live performance as the audience.  It is nice to be part of and I enjoy it without sweating!
Some challenges with performances include: if it is information about a specific piece you need to learn or be familiar with it to get the best out of it; it’s not always good to watch some else’s interpretation of a piece;  it may be a poor performance and can put you off something that you may have loved with another production; and sadly it can be expensive.

Task 3b – Theories Relating to Networking

When I started to read and look into concepts in the reader, I thought it best to start at the beginning because I am definitely finding I like structure and to follow a plan. 
After looking I found Cooperation was described as a work related community held together by close working affiliation or more distant but common work interests or needs.
I think this does describe my network but the “glue” that keeps it together for me is the friendship I have gained through a common work interest.  I find that the first contact for me is through work.  Once I become “friends” I then feel I can join their network.  Perhaps it is time for me to try and join a network where I don’t know anyone?
When I am brutally honest and critical of myself I know that location affects the efficiency of my network.  If it is not convenient I find an excuse not to engage and most of my network activity is face to face.  On reflection I realise I need to make more of an effort to travel.
Common interest is a definite pull for me and the reader describes a professional network as a group who have a common interest.  I feel comfortable in other peoples company talking about a common purpose and I would go the extra mile to meet up.  But why does it have to be a common interest?  If I were brave perhaps I should make more effort to network with people who have different interests and just suck it up, who knows I might actually like it, learn something new and it might open some new doors. 
I had a go at the prisoners dilemma game, playing the game did help me make sense of the theory.   I liked the results and did find it interesting:
o    When I cooperated all the way through we both ended up with the same score
o    When I cooperated mostly with the occasional compete – I got a higher score than my last game and my opponent.  My opponents score was not much lower when we both cooperated
o    When I competed the whole way through, I was instantly ahead  but my opponent started to compete as well, so our scores were much lower (less than half the previous scores)
I know it’s only a game but my gut feel is you  achieve more by cooperating but there are times when you have to be a little selfish.  The trick is knowing when to be selfish and when to be nice.  At this point in time I don’t plan to change but I do need to think more about the right time and place to compete.
In the extract from Axelrod it mentions that human behaviour is guided by our genetic inheritance.  Hofstede also mentions culture as a factor to our need for affiliation.
“Genetic inheritance is the transmission of genetic material from parent to offspring. Almost all physical traits and many personality traits and unique abilities are found in the genes”
I have been bought up in a large extended family and we have strong values. Here are a few things that our family supports:
o    “family comes first”
o    “don’t start a fight, just finish it”
o    “Never go to bed on an argument”
So does my upbringing position me to be more cooperative than competitive?  I have friends who are single children and their family is not very close.  They are happy on their own and their need for affiliation is significantly less than mine.  Are these the type of people who easily network and don’t rely on the need for friendship to keep it together?
I wonder if I had been bought up in more competitive environment (nature vs. nurture) would I be more aggressive and proactive with my networking. This course is definitely making me realise I did actually know a lot about myself and understanding the theory helps me realise there are many other ways of working all I need to do is try them.
I form close relationships in my network and I like to have a network of support so for me Affiliation  is very close to my heart.  I like a sense of involvement, I like belonging to something.  I tend to seek approval from those I have good relationships with and see a lot.  The other interesting thing is I like to think of myself as a supportive member of the team.  I am happy to work with people and let them lead but I think lack the “competitive thing” I need to think about not being so passive and possibly taking the lead more.
I can’t really argue with the Crisp, J & Turner, R. (2007 pp266-268) extract.   I do think my upbringing makes me want to affiliate.  I agree culture and nurturing will influence the desire to affiliate and the way you do it e.g. must have an element of friendship & cooperation.  I have always said I do not like being alone.   I am not always comfortable being by myself for too long, but I do now appreciate some ‘me’ time.  I think the secret to success is controlling it, not feeling obliged to affiliate so that you don’t get the feeling of being overcrowded or isolated.  I understand and have the two types of affiliation, one where it is complimented by close friendship the other where it is a more professional relationship.  I think the extract from Crisp and Turner really resonates with me and I agree.   I think it is a natural thing to have people around, we are not solitary beings and personally I use my network when I am in need. 
I think networks are important both in personal and professional lives and having close relationships is needed for survival (reproduction in the most basic term).  But I do think in our professional lives networks make things more enjoyable.  If you are happy with the people around you as well as the work it must help.
It is really important to keep a network fresh and stimulating.  There are lots of ways of doing this:
o    Helping younger or less experienced people can make you feel better about yourself.  It is a way of transferring knowledge so that someone else can benefit from your own experience.  (I don’t do this enough but do when the opportunity arises)  
o    Leaving a network when it no longer works for you (I  don’t actually leave I just meet less frequently)
o    Introducing new people into the network ( I do this)
o    Starting new ones up ( I haven’t purposely started a new network but I do through mutual friends link in with other people)
o    Cross fertilising networks (doing it all the time it a natural thing for performers)
o    Making sure that my self-marketing is fresh and up to date (Must tackle this soon)

Social Constructionism was the concept I found hard going.  I think it was saying a network is not a network until I or some else calls it a network.  I thought an example would be me calling something a network that someone else might call a friendship and vice versa.   I can’t argue with this but it does make me think that I need to be more aware of what people are trying to get out of any situation.
The reader refered to Connectivism as:
‘In relation to professional networks the theory of Connectivism provides an explanation about how networks provide the means for individuals to connect and learn from and within the network’ (reader)
So it is not just people I have learnt from.  Connectivism is about using my network of people with my network of resource s.  The internet is probably the most common way now that people connect.   The “half life of knowledge” made me think.  I know things change quickly but I never thought about how some knowledge gained can soon become obsolete.   It made me think about being less possessive and more open to new approaches. 
People I have learnt from and gained knowledge from were just stepping stones and now it is easy to connect these with technology and make sense of it all. In my head it looks a bit like an underground tube map!   I have learnt to build on the information and adapt it to make sense to me.  When I first read the reader I thought how dumb am I?  But as I reread and started to make more sense of it I realised I do quite a lot of this.  I am a very structured person but I cope very well with chaos and I am getting better at it.
Communities of Practise is common sense to me but the reader describes it in a theoretical way.  Dancers are members of many communities of practice, a cast is one, we all learn through our experience and working together.
 I am finding I do so many things naturally that I did not even think about before.   I need to sit down and draw myself a map of how far I’ve come and the connections I have made.

Wednesday, 29 December 2010

3a – Current Networks

Networking is something that normally fills me with dread because I associate it having to be ruthless and selling yourself in a “cringey” sort of way.  But after looking at my networking tools for this course I realise it is a natural thing to network I just don’t exploit it or use it to my own personal advantage.  I network without thinking about it more than I thought.
The current tools I use to network:
·         Internet – Facebook, casting websites
·         Email – hotmail
·         Phone – mobile, landline & Skype
o   Talking
o   texting
·         121 meetings
·         Papers
·         Parties/events/conventions
·         Classes
Things that others use that I should think about using:
·         Twitter
·         Blogs
·         Personal web sites
·         Teaching/coaching/presentations
·         Choreographing
·         Linked in
·         Friends reunited
·         My space
·         You tube
The things I use socially that might help me develop my network more are things like facebook.  I do not use all the facilities available at the moment to market myself.  More casting agents and audition sites are advertising on facebook and it is something I am trying to utilise more to help me.  I also think I could socialise more after a class with different types of people, go to different classes than my ‘norm’ to broaden my network groups.  Another thing I thought about the other day, was making time to attend my friends events and their friends events.  The few I have attended have been fun and informative.  I have normally learnt something new e.g. new producer , play and I have met and talked to new people.
Reflecting on networking, I thought about other people’s motives.  An obvious one is self gain, to help them find work, be considered for future work, be ahead of the game and know what’s currently happening or coming up.  I get the impression that some people are gifted sales people and use the network to sell themselves, good on them!  I have made friends with people I have worked with and so many of them network just to socialise.  I do enjoy being part of a group with similar outlooks.

‘with a network of support that will help us when we are in need’ (crisp & turner 2007 pp266)
I can relate to that and agree with it, it’s nice to feel safe and part of a group.
Within my network, I have worked with choreographers who have later been helpful to me with no obvious benefit for themselves other than just being nice.  After talking about this, it was pointed out to me that the benefit was merely paid forward by myself.  I had helped the choreographer by being a good member of her team and that made her want to help me later on.   The reader talks of ‘Sovial Constructionism’ which I think relates to this. 
My ideal network  would have many branches e.g. it would be good to directly network with casting agents  rather than go through my agent.  It would result in job offers directly based on my reputation and provide me with contacts where I could develop and grow as a professional.  My ideal network would help others as much if not more than it helped me.
Looking and reflecting on my current networking I think I need to branch out and use the opportunity to market myself more. (I have been researching about self image and marketing and will blog this separately.  I could also make more use of the tools available:
·         Take new classes to learn new skills (meeting new people)
·         Explore the functions of the web base tools e.g. personal web site
·         Be more disciplined about checking sites and creating sites
·         Investigate and attend more diverse conventions/conferences/events
A bit of a strange question what do I not know; however, I do know that by exploring and trying new things I will realise what I didn’t know.

2d: Inquiry

There are quite a few things I would like to inquire about more but of one of the things I am enthusiastic about within the industry other than simply performing is costumes.  They really interest me; there are so many elements that need to be looked at when they are designed:
·         The designs
·         How they are made
·         Practical/relevant to what the dance is/reflects the performance
·         Safety and comfort
·         The history of the dance costume
·         Technical/rules/elements
I really enjoyed Strictly Come Dancing, not just the dancing but in particular how the costumes varied, specifically how the designs differed depending on the character in the dance, the type of dance and dancers personal preference.  The Strictly Come Dancing costume designer is Sue Judd, I think she is really talented and designs some gorgeous outfits.  I started trying to look into her and below are two of the sites I found interesting:
I have some experience as a performer, of poorly made, inappropriate and badly fitted costumes and know how they are really affect how you feel about a piece.
In one production in was in the wardrobe mistress was given a budget and a large selection of pre made costumes.  Her directions were to use as many of the existing costumes and alter them some were purchased and a few made to measure.  She stayed with us for 3 weeks when the shows started and then left.  As a cast we experienced many issues with the costumes:
·         Too tight, too small
·         Not secure so they came undone during a performance
·         Too long so they had to be held or they walked on them
·         Too short, too low so they showed parts of the body which would not normally be seen
·         Wrong colours, wrong accessories
·         Wrong costume for the song
·         Wrong materials, constantly needed ironing and had to be dry cleaned
I really enjoy my profession but there are some things that can make me angry. One of them is unprofessional behaviour.  This has been a bug bear of mine since college. 
·         I could never understand why students turned up late or inappropriately dressed when they were so lucky to be offered a place to train
·         I hate when a member of the cast does not practice between rehearsals and turned up not remembering what they were taught the day before.
·         I am irritated when a member of the cast does not perform in rehearsals and shows.  This more than often causes extra work for the rest of the cast and almost always puts the choreographer in a bad mood.
I am fortunate to have worked with many professional people who consistently maintain professionalism in everything they do.  One of those is a dancer I worked with who has become a true friend.  Her time keeping is excellent, she is focused, works hard, listens, performs and is a nice person to add.
When I am performing, I love it. It’s the best feeling in the world.  I love the “buzz” of performing, the satisfaction of working hard, and meeting new people, visiting new places and learning from and working with talented people.
I have been privileged to work with Gavin Lee (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gavin_Lee):  He is an incredibly hard working, talented and successful professional.  He oozes enthusiasm, which I find contagious.  His choreography was great to perform and fun to watch and to crown it all he is a nice guy to work with.
Something I don’t understand is choreography.  I struggle with the transition of an idea into a performance.  I have tried many times to conquer it and the only time I feel I was successful was when I was paired up with a partner who felt the same way.  We did complete the task but did it by taking “the mick”.   Just like I mentioned in a previous blog we faked it until we made it  and actually did really well.
Someone I admire who can choreograph is Matthew Bourne.  He admits he mastered this skill late in life (see BBC interview) He is able to choreograph a story, in a way no one else has done.  His productions are fun to watch and always have something a little different.
BBC interview: http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/console/b00wdf42/Start_the_Week_06_12_2010
I have recently taken on a part time job in between contracts.  I am a personal assistant in a small company that provides “bits” to art and production directors.  I am learning about sourcing materials, how and when they are used in productions and what can be produced when they are assembled. This has inspired me to research more about the production side of TV & Film.

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Matthew Bourne

I am just doing some work on my inquiry, specifically something I have always found challenging.  Someone I feel has mastered it and I admire is Matthew Bourne, I heard an interview with him yesterday that interested and I thought I'd share it with everyone.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/console/b00wdf42/Start_the_Week_06_12_2010

Sunday, 5 December 2010

Task 2b: Reflective Writing

When I started to think about taking a single day and using the frame work from Reid and Moon as a base for the journal day, I decided to pick the day randomly.  When I picked the day I made sure I had enough time in the evening to give it my full attention. 
The day I decided to write about was a month ago now, but I am just finding the time to blog about it.  It was a day when I had an audition that was slightly out of my comfort zone.
Firstly I found I wrote so much more than I have done in my journal on other days.  I don’t know if this is because I made sure I had lots of time to think about it at the end of the day, or because I had different structure and different viewpoints to write from. 
I think because I knew I was going to write about the day in detail, I thought about and reflected on things more as they were happening.  I even made notes of certain things as they came up which I haven’t done before. I found it made writing it up easier because the notes were when the feeling was fresh so it came back to me easily.
It’s not a framework I would like to use every day for my journal. Since then I have continued to research other people’s ways of writing journals.  I did find writing from someone else’s perspective interesting and fun and once I started I found that part easier to write.   I am much more comfortable telling someone else’s story rather than my own.  I haven’t found writing a journal comfortable at all but this view point did help me start.
The part I would consider using again, to help me is the themes.  I found this section quite a positive part and it helped me focus on the good bits of the day.
I don’t think anything major came to light that I did not already know, but it did start to make me feel generally more at ease with the journal writing process.

Task 2a: Reflective Journal


I have never written a journal before and I was reluctant to start, mainly because I struggle with written text.  Not that I can’t write, just that I don’t like to. I am a talker, I like to talk about my day and I prefer to act it out. 
So I started with the basics. I decided to use the lap top rather than a paper journal and I simply listed the events of the day, no reflection, no emotions, just facts.  A couple of days in I started to do some research.  I started with the definition of a journal and found there is a difference between a diary and a journal:
·         A diary is a report of what happened during the day. It’s a bit like a newspaper about you.
·         A journal is about examining your life. Journals lead to insight, growth, and sometimes, achieving a goal.
http://quinncreative.wordpress.com/2007/08/26/journal-diary-whats-the-difference
http://42explore.com/journl.htm
I wanted to try different ways of a approaching the journal to see if another way felt more comfortable to me.  I have started by moving from the computer to writing the journal by hand.  Using a computer is a bit of a chore, it is a big thing, needs charging, is not instantly accessible (needs booting up) and it feels like work. I found having a book made writing it up easier because I can have it with me at all times, so instantly accessible if I want to make notes there and then.   I am not doing much performing at the moment so my journal seems quite repetitive with little reflection.

I have been thinking about the other ways we have been recommended to try:
·         Write a poem - not a skill I have.
·         Sketching – something I would love to do but my skill level is stick men only.
·         Video – I looked at Marks blog and his video diary seemed a good idea, perhaps something I will try later
·         Photo – I like photography so this is one I defiantly want to try to use and incorporate in my journal.

While I continued to research and look at the extended reading list I found a few things that started to help.  I like quite a few things Ron Klug has said. They make sense to me and this quote is something I believe in and have used in a few situations, especially when I started my journal:

Ron Klug (2002: 34) talks about a college professor who gave the following salient advice to a student: 'Go through the motions, and you'll get the emotions'.

Although I tend to say ‘Fake it, till you make it!’

I am starting to find journal writing easier as time goes by and since I have moved from typing to writing it by hand I feel it is slowly moving from a diary to a journal.  Hopefully it will evolve even more and be something I enjoy and find useful.  I will keep you posted.